Making the balance at the end of years is not something I’m particularly fond of. My organized nature, however, that wants everything sorted out, labelled and placed in the right box, pushes me to look back, search the archives and make some sense out of their contents.
As it is the case for everybody else, things happened to me in 2017. People, travels, inspirational moments, disappointments, chores. To say that every good thing is an achievement after hard work and every bad thing is a great opportunity to learn from and a challenge to complete is something that painfully reminds me of the corporate talk at the office. I read so much of this on the internet over the last couple of days, it almost left me hopeless and depressed. People are going to say what other people want to hear. What they want to hear, too, or else the perfect image they are trying to project onto the world might suffer. And who can afford vulnerability today? It’s the scariest and most embarrassing thing.
Some takeaways from 2017 (and not only):
Hard work does not always bring achievement. No matter the time, energy and passion invested in the process. With a daytime job from 9 am to 5 pm and a dedication to my photography from after dinner to sometimes 1 or 2 am, I cannot say I did not work hard enough. Most of the times, I chose photography over time invested in relationships. Satisfaction came on some occasions, but most of the time this left me drained, confused and isolated.
Another “revelation” is that a bad thing is what it is – a bad thing. Why do we need to cover each failure or catastrophe in wise words, to camouflage it to such extent we are almost implying to be happy with it happening to us? To be left out, to see a relationship morphing from blossom to rubbish, to have to deal with the worst in people – these are the kind of bad things that leave me, over and over again, speechless, hurt and numb. Not every bad thing is a challenge and sometimes there is no learning that comes with it either.
Wishes for 2018 (and not only):
To give up on what it did not work.
To come up with new ideas.
To keep on doing what I like.
To punch hypocrisy in the face with the same dedication as ever.
To welcome new open and genuine people into my life.
Without further ado, here is a quick look back at the year 2017, month by month, one image dedicated to location (travels mostly) and then some links to my favourite posts.
The Danish Home / I Have a Dream / How Living in Amsterdam Is Killing the Woman in Me